Six years ago, Sanhita Sinha woke up to her toddler daughter crying. Instead of trying to calm her down, Sanhita just sat in front of the crying child like a statue. She didn’t know how for how long. But when she snapped back to reality, she knew that something “weird” was going on.
At the time, Sanhita’s marriage of 4 years was in shambles. She wouldn’t sleep, eat or bathe. On a friend’s insistence, she went to a psychiatrist and was diagnosed with severe depression.
Soon after, Sanhita’s marriage ended and she shifted in with her parents, along with her daughter, five years old at the time. She got therapy and now has her own business- as a wedding photographer!
Sanhita’s fight with depression has been 6 years long. She reached out to FIT to share her story. Here’s her guide to surviving depression and conquering your demons.
STEP 1: THE TRIGGER
“I used to be very sad and lonely all the time”, says Sanhita while talking about the time when she was having troubles in her marriage.
Sanhita Sinha The incident with my daughter was definitely a trigger. It was the first sign of ‘weirdness’ in my character. What had happened to me?, I used to think. Why did I act this way?
“It is important to act when you feel like something is wrong”, she says. “It took me some time to act on myself even after that incident.”
2. THE SYMPTOMS
The next step, Sanhita says, is to recognise your symptoms. They may seem ordinary, but they are not.
“I'd lost sleep. It used to be in extremes. I would sometimes feel very sleepy and sleep for the whole day. Or there's no sleep at all”, she says.
Sanhita SinhaMy appetite was gone. There was phase when for a week I didn’t eat anything. Another major symptom was that I used to cry a lot.
“It is very difficult to seek help yourself in such a situation”, Sanhita adds. “So I’d request the family and friends of the person to step in when they see these symptoms and get help for them”.
“To come out of that phase, you need to increase your self-worth in your own eyes”, says Sanhita. For her, taking the decision to walk out of a bad marriage, in spite of having a child, was the first step towards that.
“One day the threshold in our marriage just broke because of something that happened. Then I just called my father and I said that I want to come back. I just packed my bags and by the end of the day I came back to my hometown”, recalls Sanhita.
The very next day, Sanhita’s parents took her to a both a psychiatrist and a therapist.
Sanhita SinhaWhen I was in my marriage, it was like a vicious cycle. I was unable to take care of myself, or even take my medicines on time. I would get better for a few days. Then again something would happen and I would relapse.
“I did therapy and only after taking therapy for a year or so I realised that self-care is the most important factor in our life. Because if you're not happy yourself, how can you make another person happy?”, adds Sanhita.
As she delved into therapy, Sanhita began discovering her creative side. Something, as a student of engineering, she hadn’t done before. Soon, she replaced her verbal therapy sessions with art therapy.
Sanhita Sinha I’ve done art therapy which is an expressive form of therapy. Verbal therapy is good but in expressive therapy there are different forms and kinds like dance therapy, art therapy, sports or even writing. It’s like you choose a medium and through that medium your therapy happens. When you do art therapy, whatever is hidden in your subconscious mind, even that comes out. And that helps a lot.
About a year ago, Sanhita started getting her daughter for her art therapy sessions too as an exercise to bond with her.
Sanhita has experimented with various things since she managed to come out of her depression. She is now a wedding photographer and as someone who once completely isolated herself, loves meeting new people at the weddings she covers.
“ I love emotions, I love people. And that is why I love weddings. It is true that mine fell apart but that doesn’t matter. It’s like an exam. If you fail, you don’t have to discourage other. You just have to ask them to prepare better”, she laughs.
You can follow Sanhita’s work on her Facebook page.
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